i write sins not tragedies

what is it about college that makes me constantly taste like coffee.

i feel like college has made me go off the wall.
and i don't feel like it's just me. my best friend, who can't even see how talented she is, is starting to break down because of our art program. i wish she could pull through, i know she could if she really tried.
and what is it about me? i used to be the student who loved to learn, i loved to get up and go to school everyday. this semester, i cant even bring myself to go to my first morning class. what is it about college that drains us of our motivation? maybe it's because i'm undecided about what i'm going to do with my life. but i hope i figure this out soon.

I see God in birds and Satan in long words

I've never hit such a low point before. It's kind of hard to explain. I'm overworked, completely underpaid. It's my first year living by myself, supporting myself, and feeling completely alone. I've never hated school more. And it's funny because I'm usually a straight A student. My focus is splintered. My vision is no longer clear. I used to watch the news, I used to be on the internet most of my waking time. I feel like i used to know what was going on in the world. Today, i feel completely out of the loop.

Honestly, I need to straighten myself out. Sleep first, energy drinks later.